Hi Fred
Sounds like you had a really rough go so far. Events like these changes everyone's lives, not just ours. It also seems that part of your challenge was getting to the care you needed. It's unfortunate that other symptoms (pneumonia) occur during hospital stays. My heart attack occurred five years ago on 3/22. There were a lot of challenges with my recovery. Six weeks in ICU, one week on a regular floor and five additional weeks at a rehab hospital. I get how life changing health events impacts the mental aspects. It's been a long recovery for me mentally as well as physically.
Aside from my physical rehabilitation, I sought the help of a psychologist. She helped me to navigate the "new" me. I recommend anyone going through PTSD or other struggles to seek out this kind of help. Find someone you would feel comfortable in sharing your story, as well as the impact on your family.
Today I serve as a patient advocate for Mended Hearts. I visit heart patients at local hospitals. I also work for the National office attending health fairs, National Discussion Panels as well as lobbying members of Congress regarding health care legislation. My doctors feel that I am doing well, but I am also hyper-vigilant with my diet and exercise routines. You will find your way with that as well.
Good luck with your journey. I had a rough start to this journey as well. But you can definitely improve. You will not be who you were, but you will be better than you could have been!
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Jeff Luckenbach
Marlboro Township NJ
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