Ira, please keep me informed of your success with becoming a mentor in the hospital. I am a hospice volunteer, but dream of being with children, especially, to give them hope and so they can ask their own questions. I have a history of working wit children three and up to 12, as an educator and childhood teacher. Children are so aware !
And to Mary and everyone else, that incredible information speaks volumes as to, basically who I am today, at 63. I am healthy and active, but WOW my thinking, the stuff that comes to mind would make Spielberg take note, and I see I am not alone.
Yep, three OH at age 11, 16, and 21, the first in 1969, when I was in ICU for five days! To quote an actor's response in the movie ARMEGEDON , well however you spell it-"This looks like a scene from Dr. Suess's nightmare."
And by the by, my spelling used to be excellent, but I have lost the ability to so now.
Since 1969 up until 2018, I have been psychoanalyzed, hospitalized five times, and attempted suicide twice. Why? Because of depression, anxiety disorder, harmful thoughts to myself....All because NO ONE ever thought I would need counselling before during and after surgery.
I never felt safe, and when I was 19, become afraid to go out to the store, movies and events, because I was petrified of the outside world. Don't know why.
I was given treatment for anger issues, depression, disassociation (SP)
and every thing in the book.except of course the missing pieces. I experienced gnomes taking my clothes out of my dresser, dreams that HAD to be real. I would, and still do, wonder whats real, where I am, and even tho I dismiss them, the eerie feeling stays with me all day. Its why I do not like going to bed, and only can sleep for four hours a night.
Your research is gratefully accepted.
I have and still do practice the indigenous way of life and of being with nature. I am also planning on beginning lessons by a sensei to teach the ways of a buddist .. After living the way I have for 60 years, (and I accept what has happened,) there is too much damage that makes it difficult to process it over and over again. I want to spend my life giving, living more simply than I already do, and be a part of a community that shares the teachings of Budiism
Thank you for allowing me to be heard. The Mended Hearts community is also a WELCOME Home for me.
Ken
So my point is, that Mary's research makes a lot of scary sense. And to be perfectly honest. I have no memory of my life between 1990 to 2016.
I was married to an abusive alcoholic wife for 32 years, and while I struggled to help raise my children, I was a zombie. (no offense to Zombies)
And I learned it had NOTHING to do with my wife's alcoholism. During the "marriage" I considered her useless, but alcoholism is a disease, so I get it. So I am learning that so so much was erased or damaged from the effects of the surgeries, (lord knows what they did in 1969, ).