"they say that hell is crowded, yet,when you're in hell,you always seem to be alone.& you can't tell anyone when you're in hellor they'll think you're crazy& being crazy is being in hell& being sane is hellish too.
those who escape hell, however,never talk about it& nothing much bothers them after that.I mean, things like missing a meal,going to jail, wrecking your car,or even the idea of death itself.
when you ask them,"how are things?"they'll always answer, "fine, just fine…"
once you've been to hell and back,that's enoughit's the greatest satisfaction known to man.
once you've been to hell and back,you don't look behind you when the floor creaksand the sun is always up at midnightand things like the eyes of miceor an abandoned tire in a vacant lotcan make you smileonce you've been to hell and back."
LendseyTwo years ago today I suffered a fatal cardiac arrest and was very fortunate to be at cardiac rehab where the nurses (my cardiac angels) used a defibrillator to save my life. I have had several more events where my defibrillator went off. I suffer from PTSD and anxiety. I was in counseling and she was tremendous in my healing. We actually did PTSD electric therapy (very mild shocks as you repeat a positive phrase). Mine was "I'm going to live". She was my second therapist as the first did not help. I encourage you to keep looking for a good friend or therapist who will listen and guide you to your new life.
I am also on medication to help take the edge off the anxiety. Very low doses. One daily and one as needed. I know medication is not for everyone. I know it's helped me cope with my new life.
If you want to talk and hear my story, it is very spiritual and uplifting, contact me and we can talk. I will send positive thoughts your way.