my AVATAR is a drawing I titled "IF", as in if I had a hat and if I had hair, I could be a cowboy. When my heart condition popped up after an encounter with a pine tree I was forced to retire and took up art. Haven't looked back since. Keeps me off the streets and allows me to relax.
The past is passed and I see no benefit in dredging it up. Just look forward to the next chapter in this adventure. Joined Mended Hearts something like 10 years ago to help other heart patients